Confessions of a Big Fatass
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Date:2002-07-05 21:47
Subject:So tired...
Mood: exhausted

I went hiking today. I was supposed to go on Monday (like I do every other Monday) but I was sick this week so I missed it. It's a 4 mile hike at Big Basin State Park that goes from the parking lot out to Sempervirens Falls and back. I normally enjoy it a lot, but not today. I was tired as soon as we started out and it didn't get any better. When we got back to the beginning of the trail I was exhausted and could barely stand up.

So I'm going to go do it again tomorrow.

-Mark, a (masochistic) big fatass.

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Date:2002-07-04 11:22
Mood: cynical

Happy Independance Day, Citizen.

That is all.

-Mark, a (mildly patriotic) big fatass.

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Date:2002-07-03 12:38
Mood: full

Green leaf and iceberg lettuce, tomatos, red onions, cucumbers in rice wine vinegar, tuna, capers, olives, and a little romano cheese. Toss, add salt and pepper, a tablespoon of olive oil, enjoy.

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Date:2002-07-03 02:06
Subject:Progress is good
Mood: tired

Today I got the most important part of my invoicing system done -- the part that clients use to see their invoices so that they can pay me. I've built the system so far from nothing in two days. Database design is done, invoice display is done. All that's left is a nicer invoice entry system and some automation. Of course, now that it's usable it'll probably never go beyond what it is now. In any case, if it gets my clients to pay me more quickly then the work will have been worth it.

On another front, I've been scheduled to work through the holiday. On the one hand I don't really mind since it's midnight to 9am and it leaves the days free, but on the other hand I won't be getting drunk for the 4th. Probably a good thing really.

And finally a question: Is Eminem incredibly bright or incredibly dumb? I can't make up my mind. His lyrics are interesting and seem to hint that there's a lot more going on in his head than he lets on, but then he opens his mouth at an interview and I lose all respect. Maybe that's the idea.

Oh well, back to the code.

-Mark (a very busy) big fatass

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Date:2002-07-01 20:37
Mood: excited

On the first day of my journal, I mentioned that my short term goal is to be under 300lbs.

Today we got a scale. I weigh 301 lbs. I'm very close.

Just thought I'd share.

-Mark (the ever shrinking) big fatass.

[note: check out this news story if you're curious about my 'music' selection]

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Date:2002-07-01 18:32
Subject:So busy...
Mood: productive

Things have been crazy for the past few days so I haven't had time to update much. The weightloss project seems to be going well -- I had to add a new buckle hole to my belt for the second time in as many weeks yesterday. I haven't weighed in yet, but I'm guessing that I'm at 305 or less.

We had salmon steaks and asparagus steamed with lemon pepper for dinner last night, and lunch today was lox and capers (mmm, capers...). I think that Brandy is slowly warming up to the new diet, but she's still a little grumpy when I mention that she shouldn't have something. I'm trying to be patient, though... it took me a while to get comfortable with it as well.

Anyway, back to writing code. Three clients all want their stuff yesterday and I don't think I'll be finished with it all until Wednesday. The joys of being in demand.

-Mark, a (little less of a) big fatass.

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Date:2002-06-29 13:15
Subject:Work, work, work...
Mood: busy

I mentioned a few days ago that my consulting business has been picking up. Well, for the next 20 waking hours or so I'll be sitting squarely in front of my computer writing PHP code. Which is a good thing, considering that I'll get paid for that time and that between the IRS and the CA Franchise Tax Board, I need to come up with something near $25,000 in fairly short order. Death and Taxes, right?


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Date:2002-06-27 16:26
Subject:I'm not lonely anymore!
Mood: cheerful

Today has been a Good Day (tm). My wife is home from Florida (after being absent for 1-1/2 months), the house is getting organized, my consulting business is taking off, and I just had a great lunch. Green salad with tomatoes, onions, and baked chicken strips, and some left over soup from yesterday. Man, I'm full. I doubt I'll eat again today.

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Date:2002-06-26 12:38

I made some stew-like stuff. I haven't gone grocery shopping yet, so I had to make do with what was in the cabinet. Low-fat beef broth, stewed tomatoes, tomato paste, kidney beans, mushrooms, kernel corn, lots of garlic and onion. It's tasty stuff. Not much fat, not many calories, and damn it's filling. Oh well, enough with lunch. Back to the trenches.

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Date:2002-06-26 07:49
Subject:Sick sick sick...
Mood: blah

Well, I won't be walking today. I've been fighting off this cold or flu or whatever it is for the past 4 days or so, and today it won. I woke up this morning unable to swallow and breathing was pretty difficult too. I guess I'll be eating chicken soup (no noodles) and drinking lots of orange juice. More later.

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Date:2002-06-25 15:57
Mood: hopeful

(Note: The following started out as an organized overview of myself and my reasons for doing what I'm doing. However, during the process of writing it all it became somewhat disjointed. Please forgive me. My writing style is usually much more fluid.)

My name is Mark. I'm 24 years old and live in Santa Cruz, California. I'm originally from Hampton, VA. I'm married. I'm a software developer working as a system administrator. I'm an Amateur Radio operator. I'm a photographer. I like hiking in the woods, climbing rocks at the beach, and cycling (although I haven't bought a bike since I moved here from Florida).

Oh, and I'm a big fatass.

Yep. I'm 5'11" tall and I currently weigh 310 pounds. I've always been overweight, from elementary school on (and let me tell you, if you weren't the fat kid in school, you missed out on some amazing abuse). My weight peaked at 350lbs or so (the scale really stops weighing accurately at 330lbs) and I decided that the time was right to do something about it.

I want to be clear about one thing: If you're comfortable with your body, then there's nothing wrong with you. Sure, being overweight can impact your health, but that can be managed as well. I am a relatively healthy individual. My blood pressure is normal, I don't get sick often. I don't believe that people should be harassed by anyone because of their size, including medical harassment by doctors. Some people are tall, some are short, and it's the same with weight. Everyone is different.

So I can hear you asking now, "Why are you going to so much trouble then, if there's nothing wrong with being fat?" The short answer is that I'm tired of it. I'm tired of feeling exhausted after mild exercise, of being unable to do things that I want to do because of my size like ride some rollercoasters and learn to fly. So I've decided to make a life change and lose weight.

My long-term goal is to be below 200lbs. My short-term goal is to be under 300. I've started this journal to chronicle my successes and failures, to record what works and what doesn't, and to exercise my writing skills while doing all of it. Feel free to follow along and comment if you feel the urge. The next year should be interesting.

A (recovering) Big Fatass.

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